Hailing from Southern California, Cockeyed Optimist is an original band bringing Rock music to the next generation. Fans describe their music as a cross between Paramore and Evanescence yet somehow “Timeless”. In a world where rock music is no longer popular, Cockeyed Optimist crafts songs heavy in sound and subject matter. While many Alternative and Hard Rock acts rely on backing tracks and pitch correction, CEO brings honesty back to rock music, playing every concert 100% live and producing their recordings without autotune.
Singer Cynda Renae began writing the music that became Cockeyed Optimist in 2007 as a way of healing herself after being kidnapped at gunpoint and raped. After she found a songwriting partner and guitarist in Sean Pierce Johnson, they released some of those songs on their first EP Undocumented in 2011. Their second EP All That You Were, released in 2013, also inspired the band to film and produce two music videos.
The duo has performed two West Coast club tours and played at many California colleges, universities, fairs and community events with various drummers and bassists. In 2014, they started the nonprofit organization, I Am A Cockeyed Optimist with the mission to help others heal from pain. At the same time, they met drummer Nick Stone who has since brought his orchestral background and fresh perspective to the music. The organization has become their biggest source of pride, enabling them to perform their songs at SoCal high schools while bringing a message of hope to the students.
The band is currently releasing their first full-length album, Into the Night, as a series of singles. The title track came out New Year's Day 2018 and the follow-up “Manotheistic” was released for Warped Tour 2018. With many insisting that rock music is dead, CEO is proving that it just needs rediscovered. After every high school performance, students tell them “I’ve never listened to rock, but I love your music.” Cockeyed Optimist hopes that Into the Night will reach a wider audience and allow them opportunities to perform larger festivals. In the meantime, CEO will continue their mission by bearing the torch of rock music in the 21st Century.
What has become of us? We’re only into us So scared of dying We’re afraid to live Is there a future left? Or are we just scared to death? How can we sit around, When the world is burning down?
Pre chorus: It’s survival of the fittest But I’m sick of surviving It’s not enough just to exist I wanna be thriving
Chorus: I’m going out there Don’t try and stop me Why are we holding on, To what won’t last for long? Don’t know what’s out there, But I’ll lose it in here We’ve staying inside and tried to hide, But now it’s into the night we go
What made us into this? Was it forced onto us? We crawled in our hole With no plan to leave Who are we fooling here? There’s lives to save out there Pick up your courage It’s time to face the storm
When you’re painted in a corner Your back’s up against the wall That’s not living, it’s existing and that’s all
Towers in the sky and ships below the sea We've built up every corner ostentatiously Keep praising man for all the things he's done Don't mention those we've killed and lied to just for fun
Chorus: Who would be our master in a manotheistic world? You laugh and say ourselves, but can you be so sure That no one could control you?
Experts in every form of communication But face to face we can’t hold a conversation Don’t know how to listen to each other anymore If we keep this up who knows what lies in store?
Chorus: Who would be our master in a manotheistic world? You laugh and say ourselves, but can you be so sure, That no one could control you? Every question can’t be answered when there is always more Our brains or our machines don’t know what life is for No they can’t console you
Bridge: We want to live forever, but what would that mean If each and every person was just a machine? We’d think we had a thought, but it’s just programming No we won’t feel anything
Chorus: Who would be our master in a manotheistic world? You laugh and say ourselves, but you can’t be sure That no one could control you Every question can’t be answered, there is always more Our brains or our machines don’t know what life is for No they won’t console you
The world's against you, it's against us all Just keep fighting or you will fall Try a little harder, don't give up so soon It's not my life, I can't live it for you
I would hold on tighter If I could save you
Your legs are shaking and your hands are cold Signs that the sickness has taken hold Deep down you know death is the coward's way out To live takes courage, please don't give up now
I would hold on tighter If I could save you But I still see a candle In the black hole you're in
What do you want on your tombstone? That you lived life with all your heart? Or that you gave it up too soon And you never even tried?
I would hold on tigher But I can't save you Don't blow out the candle In the black hole you're in
Stuck in this stagnance is where I lie Between life and death, let's call it half life Things don't get better and can't get worse Don't know what to feel inside
I can't move left, I can't move right I'm stuck in the sand with no help in sight Try as I may there's no escape Don't know what to feel inside
PreChorus: What brought me here to this place of waste and pain? Dull to the memory, will it come again?
Chorus: I just want a break I just wanna wake up With all these problems solved I just wanna heal I just wanna feel like I did before I lived this half life
Lost on the long and winding road I'm getting nowhere, but getting there slow I'm searching for something, it might be life Don't know if I'll ever find it
Lost in a dream with waking eyes Don't know if it's real or just a disguise I'll open the curtain; it's open wide Don't know what I want to find
Each day I find, this mound's ground higher No matches left to set it on fire Each night I find no sleep, my brain's all wired I can't keep feeling this way
Put your feet in the concrete footprints Of someone, try to be them But you can never be You can never pay the fee To buy your star
Spare some change, not today Don't got enough myself to be of help When you'll just spend it all You won't eat, but you will crawl Into the bar
Chorus: So many players with their masks glued on In Hollywood, they're looking for the next turn on You've sold your soul to be the next icon In Hollywood, they'll take until all that you were is gone
Spend the night, but you know that it is Not the right way to get your Name on the credit line You coulda made it if you took the time And not went that far
Lost your mind living on these Lonely streets at night Don't you know that you're not the only one? Life's hard for everyone But it makes you who you are
You gotta toughen up if you wanna make it here Thick skin, strong will and no fear of fear
Bridge: Hollywood streets aren't paved with gold They're paved with blood and broken souls Where dreams are lost and tears are shed On Hollywood streets all hope is dead (repeat)
I'd walk in the room But I don't know which you you'll assume Don't know the trigger and neither do you At a moment's notice, the flick of a switch The change is so sudden With barely a glitch
PreChorus: Your appearance doesn't change Except for inside But I can see the difference I can see the Hyde
Chorus: There's a fine line between Jekyll and Hyde Not only genius, but madness inside Don't wanna be there when your two worlds collide Cuz next thing I know, I'm running for my life
I'd get you some help But you insist that you're well I've got no proof, just stories to tell You drink no potions No pills do you take You go to bed Jekyll, but Hyde you awake
Do you always need the last word? When will you be satisfied? I am not you I will not become the Hyde
There's a deer in your headlights She don't know which way to run Behind glazed eyes the future's hazy Will this moment be her last one? Won't you slam on your brakes now? Cuz she can't take another hit Show some compassion, I know it's hard But please show a little bit
Chorus: I can't breathe The stress is squeezing the life outta me I'm trembling constantly Can't you just do something?
There's a fish in your bowl And she's got no where to hide Through the glass, everyone can see She can't come up for air She has to eat what they feed her With no regard for what she likes They make all her decisions But who's to say they're always right?
Hello Life, I'm calling in sick Cuz I can't take another day like this I've lost my mind and I don't know if I can get it back
Just do something
It’s the worst thing to be let down It’s like a chainsaw that makes a sound No one can hear but you
It’s the worst thing to be let down It’s like you were slapped and then thrown on the ground And no one has seen but you
Chorus: Oh you know, you gotta set things right Stop all this pain inside Oh I know, I can’t go on this way You’ve gotta make a change
It’s the worst thing to be afraid It’s like a leash; you’ve tried to escape But no one’s holding on but you
It’s the worst thing to be afraid It’s like you’ve fallen down into a grave That no one has dug but you
It’s the worst thing to be alone This empty house never feels like home Cause no one is here but me...
Paralysis unhinges locked doors Instant pre-acceptance like never before Emits depravation down to my core I used to be so stainless and so pure
Your momentous occasion is not my war Vitality demoralized leaves the mind sore Your unfair contest creates no uproar I didn't expect this; didn't know what's in store
Heaven open up your ears Cuz I can't even scream Heaven if you hear me know I pray you set me free
My options extend to neither or nor One false move and this place is a morgue You're an ant on the sidewalk to large to ignore How you trampled on me, I'm still unsure
Who authorized you to view the grand tour? You've the face of a coward I've come to abhor Exhaustion forces you to the floor It's funny, I imagined a little bit more
Chorus: Heaven open up your ears Cuz I can't even scream Heaven if you hear me know I pray you set me free Heaven open up your eyes I know you can see Heaven won't you lead me out Oh God, set me free
You took it away (4x)
Go ahead, talk about yourself some more You think you're so interesting Watch the news, exercise your right to vote You think you'll change the world
PreChorus: All these sheep just do what they're told Eat, breed, sleep and die when they're old
Chorus: You're so happy in your emptiness You chase after Everything that's meaningless
Go ahead, tell me how you'd end this war You think you know everything "It takes two to tango. Now, let's talk it out." You think you're so educated
You can't please everyone cuz no one's the same No matter what someone always wants a change You think I'm heartless, but I mean when I say, "I don't care, I'd rather live for today."
Go ahead (4x)
Just whimper, we'd come Anything for you But you led us all astray And I trusted you
Chorus: You've cried wolf too long now I can't hear you You need a shoulder, but I won't be there I've held your hands and wiped tears for you Those days are over, I won't be there
You cried out and I gave A second chance too soon You barred your teeth I backed away You made me the fool
Someday you'll run on foreign shores Someday you'll take back what's yours Someday you'll learn what friends are for
All the times I tried, I consider lost
What you wanted, you said you wanted to make this forever You and me, you said we'd be always together Side by side with the world outside, it can't get no better But it's all a lie. You cut the ties; all bonds were severed
PreChorus: Then you turned around and blamed it all on me Hope you're proud of who you chose to be
Chorus: You can't tell me, my heart's like a stone When I'm not the one that is cold, Oh no Don't fall but get down off your throne Go figure out what you want
What I wanted, it's what I wanted, to make this forever You left no word, not seen, not heard, no calls, no letters Tried to fight it, but I can't fight it; loneliness entered I can't go on; I just can't move on. I'm so whatever
How did I believe? How was I deceived? How did I believe in you?
You treat me like a princess Without my request Minions spew praise But you made this a mess How could I have guessed You'd become such a pest? The butterfly free Now is oppressed
PreChorus: I can't look at you the same And I don't think I want to You put me out on display To prove I look good on you
Chorus: Do you think it's right That You worship my face? Do you know I choke When you're crowding my space? Cuz you move too fast And love isn't a race I've been wined and dined You're one of a kind But you're just too creepy
Strong arms keep me pressed Close to your chest I breathe in your smell I can't escape this arrest Cold shivers caress My mind when we kiss This isn't love You're just obsessed
What started out so innocent, so nice, so new A smile, an attraction Shifted suddenly and smooth Will you hold the door or stalk me some more?
Life feels like a puzzle I can't solve by myself Everyday shaped like the rest I'd pack it up and put it back on the shelf
If it weren't for you
Chorus: If it weren't for you, I'd lose my head I'd stay at home and stay in bed If it weren't for you, I'm hanging by a thread Cuz nothing makes sense but you
I feel like I'm drowning In the dark and deep blue sea Salty waters churn all around I'd take a drink and I'd sink carelessly
If it weren't for you
Nothing is in order Nothing is concrete I don't know where to go I don't know where to be Nothing is for certain I feel no relief Nothing makes any sense Nothing but you and me